Those Early Jobs

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I will always be thankful for having a variety of work experiences in my past.  (Hmm.  I’m thankful now.  I can’t honestly say that I was thankful during the time I had these various jobs.)

 
I learned much through all of those experiences.  Much more than I realized at the time.  Years later, I often see how God has used those work experiences in a variety of ways.  These are the jobs I had in earlier years:

 
1.  A paper route for The Dallas Morning News.  My route consisted of four long streets in Dallas.  That meant getting out of bed by 4:00 AM and on my bike within a few minutes.  On Sundays, the papers were so large that my mom drove me, folding these papers while I threw them from house to house (the newspapers had to be on the porch in those days).  In the early morning hours, I began to notice much about these houses.  Different smells.  Who had a dog.  Whose lawn was manicured and who didn’t really have a lawn.

 
2. I worked for several years at a fast food restaurant.  It was a Jack-in-the-Box.  Drive through only.  However, it was on a major street in Dallas.  I worked nights and often throughout the night.  This was my first job in which I dealt with people — lots of them.  This was often dirty work.  I remember coming home at nights reeking of grease from the deep fryers. 

 
3. After I graduated from high school, I worked at Manor Bakery one summer.  This was the hardest job I ever had.  (This was a huge bakery.  Bread, rolls, buns that would be distributed to grocery stores and restaurants throughout north Texas.)  My job was working next to a huge bun oven.   A larger conveyor belt would take hundreds of buns through this oven at one time.  The buns would come out of the oven and huge suction cups would lift them out the pans and drop them onto another belt.  I would then grab the pans that had just come out of the oven.  It was a hot job in the Texas summer.  I have memories of lots of burns that summer.

 
4.  I worked for a couple of years for Hunt Oil Company in downtown Dallas.  Worked on the 27th floor of the First National Bank Building.  I worked in the file room shuffling files to this or that office.  Taking files to another floor.  Occasionally I would be sent to find a file in the archives, which was four or five blocks away.  Nice.  I would get there after morning classes and work the rest of the afternoon.   I worked with a middle-aged, single parent who lived in Oak Cliff.  She had no car and was totally dependent on the bus to get her wherever she wanted to go.   She had two dresses.  A blue and a red one, which she wore to work on alternate days. 

 
5.  For several years, I worked for United Parcel Service.  Loading trucks.  Unloading trucks.  Driving and delivering.   This was a good job.  I began working there my last two years of college.  I worked  nights again.  I have a lot of memories of conversations with the managers.  These were often people from other places who had been sent to work in Dallas from places like New Jersey, Salt Lake City, and Denver.  I begin to notice that some of these people had now been through divorces and affairs.  For some, work seemed to be the center of their world.  It wasn’t that they loved their jobs.  Rather, it seemed to be the absence of any other center.

 
No doubt you have had your own experiences.  You’ve had jobs maybe similar or quite different from these.  For me, these were valuable.  Now at the time, it didn’t seem that way.   Looking back, however, I can see how God has used some of these experiences in my life to help me connect with a variety of people.   Yet, in some ways it doesn’t really matter whether or not I see how these experiences have been useful.  (Their value is not based on my comprehension of their value.)  What matters is that I trust that God works through my history and through my present situation.

 
What about you?  Is there any particular job you’ve had in the past for which you are especially thankful now? 

What Is That Aroma?

cookies.jpgI read the other day that dairy promoters are putting up special signs at bus shelters in San Francisco.  On the signs are the words, “Got Milk?”  What is unusual about the signs is that they
have put scent strips on them that create the smell of freshly baked
cookies.  The idea is that as people are
waiting for the bus and smelling the aroma of freshly baked cookies, they will
want a cold glass of milk.  Hmmm.

Nice try.  Who knows? 
Maybe it will work.  I know one
thing for sure: I am attracted to the
scent of  cookies baking in the oven.  What
an aroma!  Think chocolate chip.  Sugar cookies.  Oatmeal raisin.

 
Maybe the promoters are right.  They are counting on people smelling the scent of freshly baked cookies and wanting milk.  Perhaps people catch a whiff of our lives and it reminds them of something — or someone.

 
This happened last Sunday morning in our church.  A father told me earlier in the week, "I need the church to pray for our family on Sunday."  This family had been in a crisis that week.  Their son (just out of high school) had been involved in breaking into and vandalizing a nearby high school.  Security cameras caught them and the film was broadcast throughout our area on the local news.  Then, the boys, escorted by their parents, turned themselves in to the police.

 
At one moment during our Sunday morning gathering, this entire family, including the young man, sat on the front row asking the church to pray for them.  I watched people (about 75 to 80) get up from their seats and come to the front to join them.  Most of our youth group stood around this young man.   I read a statement from this family.  The statement was candid regarding the incident.  No excuses, blaming, etc.  Yet, they also declared their desire as a family to love their son through it all. 

 
So — we prayed.

 
I sat down after praying and watched as person, after person, after person hugged each member of this family.  I watched as those in our high school group hugged this young man.  At the conclusion of our assembly, I watched as still more people came to hug this family — grandparents, other moms and dads, and more teens.

 
Last Sunday morning, I caught the whiff of a scent that reminded me of Jesus.  The love and compassion of these people reminded of what we are called to be as a church.  It was a wonderful aroma.  I left that morning wanting more. 

 
What was the aroma?  The living presence of Jesus at work in a group of people.  It reminded me of Paul’s statement many years ago in which he said, "…For we are to God the aroma of Christ among those who are being saved and those who are perishing.  To the one we are the smell of death; to the other, the fragrance of life…" (2 Corinthians 2:15-16).

 
Can you think of a moment when you knew you had caught a whiff of the aroma of Christ?  Can you think of a moment that was particularly meaningful to you?

 
(You may recall a post I did recently in which I mentioned a wonderful book entitled Pilgrim Heart by Darryl Tippens.  Last evening, Darryl posted a comment on that post.  You might enjoy reading this.)    

Frederick Buechner: Laughter in the Face of a Promise

Frederick Buechner is a novelist/theologian who has written a number of books exploring faith and the meaning of life. Some years ago, I read most everything I could find by Buechner.  I found his prose gripping and his honesty disturbing.  At times, he seemed to be able to put a finger on feelings/thoughts I’ve had but was unable to express. 

 
The first book I ever read by Buechner was Telling the Truth: The Gospel as Tragedy, Comedy, and Fairy Tale (1977).  Listen for a moment to this excerpt regarding the story of Sarah and Abraham. 

The place to start is with a woman laughing.  She is an old woman; and, after a lifetime in the desert, her face is cracked and rutted like a six-month drought.  She hunches her shoulders around her ears and starts to shake.  She squinnies her eyes shut, and her laughter is all China teeth and wheeze and tears running down as she rocks back and forth in her kitchen chair.  She is laughing because she is pushing ninety-one hard and has just been told she is going to have a baby.  Even though it was an angel who told her, she can’t control herself, and her husband can’t control himself either….

 
The old woman’s name is Sarah, of course, and the old man’s name is Abraham, and they are laughing at the idea of the baby’s being born in the geriatric ward and Medicare’s picking up the tab.  They are laughing because the angel not only seems to believe it but seems to expect them to believe it too…

 
They had had quite a life, the old pair.  Years before, they had gotten off to a good start in Mesopotamia.  They had a nice house in the suburbs with a two-car garage and color TV and a barbecue pit.  They had a room all fixed up for when the babies started coming.  With their health and each other and their families behind them they had what is known as a future….Abraham was pulling down an excellent salary for a young man, plus generous fringe benefits and an enlightened retirement plan.  And then they got religion or religion got them, and Abraham was convinced that what God wanted them to do was pull up stakes and head out for Canaan where God had promised that he would make Abraham the father of a great nation which would in turn be a blessing to all nations, so that’s what they did, and that’s where their troubles started.

 
They put the house on the market and gave the color TV to the hospital and got a good price for the crib and the bassinet because they had never been used and were as good as new.  Abraham wrote an eloquent letter of resignation to the president of the company and received an equally eloquent one in reply, assuring him that there would always be a job waiting for him if he ever changed his mind and came back.  "If he ever came to his senses" was the way the president expressed it in his first draft because though he thought religion was a good thing, like social security and regular exercise, he didn’t think it was something to go overboard about like Abraham, but in his final draft, he settled for the milder wording.

 
(Frederick Buechner, Telling the Truth: The Gospel as Tragedy, Comedy & Fairy Tale, pp. 49-51) 

The One You Can Count On

Broken_Window.jpgDuring this time of the year, Thanksgiving and then Christmas,
many of us get together with family.  We are
with people we love.  Sometimes the
relationships are uncomplicated.  Very little stress. 
Yet, sometimes the relationships are complex. 
And for many people, there is some pain involved.  Often, there is some sign of brokenness.  We are reminded that things are tense between
these two sisters-in-law.  We are
reminded of a recent divorce and the absence of a person from the dinner table.  We are reminded that
two brothers had a fuss earlier in the year after they had a misunderstanding
over a business deal.

 
We deal every day with broken promises:

 

  • Broken contracts.
  • Broken agreements.
  • Broken friendships.
  • Broken marriages.
  • Broken relationships between children and their
    parents.

But we come back again and again to Scripture, to the
promise-making and promise-keeping God.

 
The other day I was reading Psalm 105.  “Give thanks to the Lord…” (vs.1).  The psalmist speaks of the God who
remembers:

 
He remembered his
covenant with Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob
(105:8-15).  The
writer begins with the promises he made to Abraham and Jacob.  The people of Israel knew
that God came through with his promises.  
He kept his word — his covenant with Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob.

 
He remembered his
covenant with Joseph
(105:16-22). 
When there was a famine in the land and all looked bleak in Joseph’s
life, God was faithful.  In fact, Joseph
went from a slave to ruler of the land. 
God kept his covenant with Joseph. 
Think of all those years spent in slavery and in a foreign land.  Yet, God never forgot him.

 
He remembered his
covenant with the Israelite captives in Egypt
(105:23-41).  During this time, he never forgot Israel.  Through the plagues and through the exodus,
he continued to be faithful.  He sent Moses
and Aaron.  He led the people through the
wilderness.  A cloud by day.  A fire by night.

 
There are days when I feel very discouraged and
disheartened by the brokenness that seems to be everywhere.  It
exists both in and out of the church (and of course, I’m not telling you
anything you don’t know).  Yet, what I
have learned is to keep going back to the one who never breaks his
covenant.  Maybe that is why the psalmist
says to “remember” (105:5).  Sometimes
his faithfulness is obvious to me. 
Sometimes it isn’t.  Fortunately,
my faith is not dependent on what I can see.  The cross and resurrection are constant reminders that God is faithful.  He keeps his promises.  He desires reconciliation.

 
This encourages me today.  Perhaps it will encourage you as well.

Who’s In Charge, Anyway?

southern_ocean_storm_000.jpgYou know fear.  That jagged, raw edge of fear.  Your stomach draws up in knots.  Adrenaline surges through your veins.  You may know what it is to experience a
constant anxiety.  Maybe you have become a brooding
worrier.  You fear that things won’t work
out. Some fears happen during
the storms we face (Mark 4:38-40).  Then, there are the
fears that occur after the storm
(4:41), when we reflect on what we have been going through.

 

We could make quite a lists of things that elicit fear in us:

  • Cancer
  • An unwanted divorce
  • The death of one of our children
  • The death of a parent
  • Financial ruin
  • Loss of a job
  • The end of an enjoyable career
  • Having to live with chronic pain
  • Being seen as incompetent
  • Hearing that there has been another terrorist attack in our country

 

Yet, there are other fears we have that may not seem quite as intense as some of the situations above.  I think what so many of us fear is a complete loss of control.  

 

You’ve been around the control freak haven’t you?  At times, you may almost feel smothered by someone trying very hard to manage every detail of a situation.  And, there are often people who would love to manage the details of your life.  If you balk at their attempt to manage your life, they might try to couch the situation as an attitude problem on your part.  

 

Some of the anger and resentment that can be found in many ministers can sometimes be traced back to years of passively allowing other people to micro-manage their lives.  When the minister has few or even no boundaries, such people are then allowed to take over their lives. 

 

Very often the spouse of this minister as well as the children begins to resent this, which only creates more problems later.  Years ago, one of my children was in a Bible class in which she was singled out by a teacher.  "You ought to know this answer.  You are the preacher’s daughter."  Hmmm.  That week, I went to this woman and had to draw some boundaries.  I told her, "When you do that, you don’t help my daughter at all.  She feels ‘different.’  You also complicate my life as a parent.  Please do not ever refer to her as ‘the preacher’s daughter’ in class again."  She was very gracious and received that very well.  (She just wasn’t thinking about the implications of her words.)   

 

Yet, some ministers and other church leaders are really into control as well.  There is quite a difference in leadership and control.  Churches need leadership.  Churches do not need people who are trying to control the thinking and behavior of people.  (I’m not saying a church should not hold to its view of biblical doctrine or have certain ethical standards.  I’m talking about trying to control and manipulate others.)

 

The good news about Jesus is that he is the only head of the church.  He is the one in charge.  He is in complete control.  Yet, sometimes, we want to take over.  After all, isn’t he asleep in the back of the boat (Mark 4:35-41)?  The truth, however, is that he will hear our prayers.  He is not far away. 

 

Does any of this speak to you?  Have you had to deal with people who seemed to want to control or manage you?  How have you dealt with that?

“We all come to this: / our knees.”

glass.jpgYesterday morning, I went outside very early while it was still dark.  Just as I left the front porch, I saw a rabbit calmly hop across our front yard.  I picked up the newspaper and began walking back toward the house and I heard a chorus of birds.  Later, I went back outside to get into my Explorer to leave for work.  I was parked under a mesquite tree next to our driveway.  Just as I opened the door to get in, I saw a squirrel on a branch above just staring at me.  When all of this happened yesterday, I thought of God and his creation.  It was a good moment. 

 

I don’t think this was that unusual.  I suspect that what actually happened yesterday morning was that I noticed.

 

Later in the day, I was on the telephone with a longtime friend whose father had just died.  He talked.  He wept.  I listened.  I wept. 

 

I noticed the sadness I felt.  It was a sadness and grief for my friend.  I felt a longing to be present with him in what he was going through.  I noticed also that there was a grief in me that went beyond our friendship.   This was a grief that came from my "gut," stored up from other losses experienced in this life.

 

And then, yesterday, I was preoccupied with a story of disappointment from another situation.  This is the kind of disappointment that I wanted to talk about and did not want to talk about.  At least yesterday, my way of not wanting to face that disappointment was in not wanting to give it "words."  Yet, of course, not to give it words for a day does not make it less real.  The good news was that I at least noticed that this early morning joy, this mid-afternoon grief, and this day long disappointment were all there, present and real.

 

Darryl Tippens, in his excellent book Pilgrim Heart, tells the story of his friend Kenny Barnes.  He speaks of this man who was a young carpenter and poet he knew in the 1980s.  Barnes suffered from leukemia and underwent much hospitalization and chemotherapy.  As a result of these experiences, he became very sensitive to "the preciousness of life."  He wrote a poem, "Last Days," in which he expresses something he grew to know better after his illness.
 

They say,

"These are the last days."

Last days!

We have always lived in our last days.

Birth is a warning.

 

Tippens then refers to a line that Kenny Barnes wrote in "Hope After Chemotherapy."  He wrote, "We all come to this: / our knees"  (Tippens, pp. 194-195).

 

No matter what, we all come to our knees.
 

Are You Really a Work in Progress?

coffee_cup.jpgA lot of us say we are.  We say, "I am a work in progress." 

 

Sometimes I will post something on this blog that has a beginning, a middle, and an ending.  At times, what I write has some resolution.  It ends with a period.  It’s over.  Nothing else said.  That is the end of the post.

 

My life is not like that.  I was thinking a moment ago about this week.  Some days, I feel like I am making great progress in my life as a man, husband, and father.  Some days I feel like I am at a stand-still.  Some days I feel really good about my work.  On other days I think, "What am I doing?"  On some days I find myself encouraged by people.  On other days I feel discouraged.   

 

My life often tends to be a bit ragged:

 

  • I say what is right.
  • I do what is right.
  • I say what is wrong.
  • I do what is wrong.
  • I’ve learned this time.
  • "Thank you Lord for your mercy and grace."
  • Now I’ll go on with life.
  • "Lord, I’ve said it again.  I failed again."
  • Good grief!  How frustrating!
  • Will I ever learn?
  • What is wrong with me?
  • "Thank you Lord for giving me another chance at life."

Yes, I am a work in progress.  Do you relate to this?

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What Do You Think About the Amish?

amish.jpgWhen we
lived in Alabama,
we would often visit an Amish community just across the Tennessee state line, near
Lawrenceburg.  We would go from house to
house where each Amish family would have something for sale.  One house would be selling
cookies, eggs, or bread.  Another would
be selling furniture.  Still another
might be building carriages—always black. 

 

One one occasion, a friend
and I watched several Amish men as they were building a carriage.  We both felt comfortable with one particular
gentleman.  Finally I said, “Your
carriages—they are always black…”  He
laughed and then said, “Yes, if they were different colors, we would be
standing here thinking about what color the carriages needed to be, now wouldn’t
we?  Now we know.  They will be black.”  Then we all laughed together.    

 

I thought
about some of  these memories recently in
the aftermath of the school shootings. 
Five children killed.  Five others
wounded.  A tragic and horrible day in a small Pennsylvania community. 

 

But that
was not all of the story.

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On Learning to Pay Attention

Ministry is service in the name of the Lord.  It is bringing the good news to the poor,
proclaiming liberty to captives and new sight to the blind, setting the
downtrodden free and announcing the Lord’s year of favor (Luke 4:18).  Spirituality is paying attention to the life
of the spirit in us; it is going out to the desert or up to the mountain to
pray; it is standing before the Lord with open heart and open mind; it is
crying out, “Abba, Father”; it is contemplating the unspeakable beauty of our
loving God.

Henri
J. M. Nouwen

 

There is an incredible story in Mark 1.  Jesus went to Simon and Andrew’s home.  Simon’s mother-in-law is sick in bed.  Jesus heals her.  That evening after sunset, people were coming from everywhere, bringing the sick and demon possessed to Jesus.  In fact, "the whole town gathered at the door" (1:33).  Cars were lined up and down both sides of the street!  

 

I suspect that in the eyes of these early followers, this was the place to be.  This ministry was working.  Then, the next morning Jesus got up early, while it was still dark, in order to pray.  He then tells these followers.  "It is time to go somewhere else."

 

What?  It looks like this ministry is going well.  Go somewhere else?  It is interesting that he says this after spending some time in prayer.   

 

Many
of us lead cluttered lives.  The cell phone
rings.  We make appointments.  We keep checking our e-mail.  We have assignments with deadlines.  On top of this, perhaps you are married and have
children.  The clutter continues. 

 

We
come to church.  Far too often the
emphasis is on activity.

 

  • The committee
    will meet at 1:00. 
  • Can you help me with
    this project? 
  • Would you mind serving
    with the group that is planning our function?

 

This activity may be centered around some very important projects that will eventually bless people. 
However, the question is not, “Do we have enough activity going on for
God?”  The question is, “Is this a place
where you could meet God?”  If we are not careful, endless activity (regardless of how good and noble the projects are) can completely drain men and women.

 

This morning, I am thinking about the importance of being attentive to God both in public and in private.  I am in "public" much of the time.  That is, I am with someone.  Whether at home or at work, I am with people.  I am with people at church and in the community.  Yet, it is so important that I am attentive to God in the midst of this.

 

Those opportunities are often both expected (deliberately slipping away to pray) and unexpected.

 

The unexpected?

 

  • Reading a book and talking with God just after you read a meaningful paragraph.
  • Listening to music and reflecting on an aspect of your life for which you are grateful to God.
  • Working on a message for the church and seeing that it is really a message for me.
  • Exercising and thanking God for a healthy body.
  • Eating lunch — perhaps alone — and remembering before God how blessed you are to have plenty to eat.

 

Maybe, this is about learning to be attentive to God no matter what.  What do you think? 

 

These Moments Made a Difference

I was thinking this morning about some of the most memorable and important moments I’ve had in my life.  Yet, at the time, they didn’t seem all that memorable or important.  God used these moments in some way to move me toward Jesus.  To be honest, I am not exactly sure why some of these moments were so impressionable to me.  I just know these moments made a difference.

 

"Don" was a big, burly ex-Marine.  He was a former aircraft mechanic who now worked at our school.  He taught our Sunday morning Bible class. That class seemed to be a mix of people.  Some were in high school and some were in college.  One day, he stood before our class and said that many people had reduced Christianity to certain things you don’t do — "no drinkin’, no cussin’, no chasin’ women."  That was it as far as some people were concerned.  He then said that what many people had missed was Jesus himself.  He talked to us about how Jesus might treat someone who was a 60s radical (this was the late 60s).  He described such a person in great detail — long hair, protesting, etc.  He went to Scripture and talked to us about what Jesus might do with such a person.

 

That was a moment that made a difference.

 

"Silas" was the preacher for the church I attended in Denton, Texas.   I was a student at the University of North Texas.  I didn’t know him then.  Still don’t know him today.  However, I do remember him coming to a retreat our campus ministry hosted one year.   What I remember is that we were staying at a retreat center where all the guys slept in one room on bunk beds.  On a Saturday morning, all of the guys were in this room and Silas came in to speak.  Here we were, scattered all over the room, sitting on various bunk beds.  Silas spoke of going to a seminar somewhere and someone asked him about his relationship with Jesus.  As I recall, he said that was one of the first times he had grappled with that.  "A relationship with Jesus."  He then began to talk with this little of group of guys about Jesus and what it meant to walk with him.

 

That was a moment that made a difference.

 

"Lynn" preached in Abilene, Texas.  I was a student at the University of North Texas.  I was dating a girl who went to Abilene Christian University.  One Sunday morning I went to church with her in Abilene.  What I remember is that this man asked everyone to open their Bibles to the Sermon on the Mount.  He began talking about the words of Jesus in one section of this text (Matthew 5-7).  He was passionate about Jesus.  I remember that.  What I also remember is that he spoke in everyday, conversational English.  I remember paying attention to this particular text in my Bible while he spoke, I could not recall doing that before.  He then ended the message.  I recall feeling disappointed that I did not live there and could not return the next week to hear more.

 

That was a moment that made a difference.

 

"James" owned a Western Auto store.  He taught the Sunday morning Bible class for singles at a Dallas church.  Most of us were in college or single and working.  It was a small class.  One Sunday morning, I visited this church and even went to Bible class.  I had not been to a Sunday morning Bible class in a number of years.  I remember that he had large, black-framed glasses and wore cowboy boots.  Most of all, I remember that he was passionate about Jesus.  He was not intense in a way that made me feel uncomfortable.  Rather, he was intense about Jesus and his relationship with Jesus.  He did not come to Christ until he was an adult and wanted others to know the joy he had experienced.  He paid attention to me and showed that he genuinely cared about me.


That was a moment that made a difference.

 

Each of these moments is important to me.  In some way, God was at work in these moments to move me toward Jesus.  What are some of the moments in your life that made a difference to you?