Several years ago, I read a very fine book by Harold Shank, entitled Loosening Your Grip (p. 9). He writes concerning the tendency of some of us to believe that it all depends on us:
- Disguise: With pride we conclude nobody else is as qualified to do this as we are.
- Response: I’m the only one who can do it.
- Disguise: As we shake our heads, we sigh, "People don’t care about these things like I do."
- Response: If anybody is going to care, it depends on me.
- Disguise: One of our excuses for working another Saturday: It’s my job to do it, and if I fail I might be out on the street.
- Response: I’m indispensable.
- Disguise: Nothing goes right unless I’m there.
- Response: It all depends on me.
Consequently, we begin to believe that we are indispensable, irreplaceable, and essential. "What would they do without me?"
Sometimes we are too wrapped up in our own importance. Meanwhile, the Gospel of God’s grace crashes into our self-reliance.
I need to hear this. Far too often, I get overwhelmed by all that is going on around me. The truth is, I am not indispensable. I am here for a while and then one day will be forgotten by most people. The only thing that is going to last is what God does through my life during the few years I live on this earth. That is humbling. But–it is also freeing.
I am free to relax and yet, work hard. I am free to enjoy and yet live with passion.
It all does not depend on me.