I was a young minister. I had a few appointments and a few calls to return. I had a lunch meeting scheduled that day. For some reason, in those years, I thought that the busier I was, the more I was accomplishing. Decades later, as I think about my motives for this pace of ministry, this was partially a desire to be effective. I suspect there were also some dark motives related to my ego.
In his fine book, An Unhurried Life (p. 8), Alan Fadling writes:
As I’ve traveled this journey, a few words of counsel have guided me. I remember reading what John Ortberg was told during a season of ministry transition in his life: “You must ruthlessly eliminate hurry from your life.” (John Ortberg, The Life You’ve Always Wanted, p. 81). Connecting ruthlessness and unhurry has always been a fruitful piece of spiritual direction for me. In the Life You’ve Always Wanted (p. 84), Ortberg suggests that “hurry is not just a disordered schedule. Hurry is a disordered heart.” And I agree. When I’m talking about hurried and unhurried, I’m not just talking about miles per hour, I’m talking about the anxious, driven frantic heart.